Today was the day the scale tipped. Unfortunately, it wasn't in favor of the forces of good. Again I ran into the 4 o'clock witching hour. I did meditate this time like I thought I would but... instead I forgot to eat lunch. Totally set myself up to eat sugar by waiting until 4pm. I had a small bowl of Life cereal and it wasn't even that good. Then I slid right into three pieces of candy and 6 ginger snaps (which were really good) cause I'm smooth like that. Uh oh Shaggy. I know when I have too many sugars building up in my body because of three things. I get a yeasty build up on my scalp, like dandruff but moist instead of flaky, yuck! My skin goes crazy, it gets oily and zitty. And the real kicker, I have a sugar voice. That's right you heard me. When I overdose on sugar it creates an alter ego. It's like this nasty, angry, grump that whispers mean, spiteful, depressing thoughts into my ear. I picture her a lot like a female version of Smegol from Lord of the Rings. Ugh! I would like to think that someday I will be free of the sugar voice. That is what finding balance is all about right? Catching it, so I don't push it to that extreme and my body needs to scream at me to get my attention. I would imagine that I need to find some smaller indications that I am closing in on sugar toxicity levels. I will have to think back and see if I can come up with anything that might be a precursor. For now I am thankful it's Thursday and I had hockey. Hockey saved me! Endorphins to the rescue. I am so thankful to feel the endolphins swimming through my bloodstream. Let's hope I can get to sleep. Looking forward to tomorrow and just saying no to the voices in my head.
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