Today was a wonderful day. Woke up and went to Body Pump early this morning and then came home and cooked breakfast for my family, which I NEVER do. Really, I mean never. I always do breakfast for dinner night instead because I have always loved breakfast food but been a night owl. Is this me turning over a new leaf, evolving, finally growing up? Whatever it is, the pancakes with homemade strawberry syrup and scrambled eggs were yummy! We had our family meeting in the morning for the first time and it went really well. And of course since we were trying to hurry our knot game that we play and usually can get out of in two shakes of a lambs tail was impossible, which made it all the more fun. Somehow we ended up all in a line with our backs to each others fronts like a train, still holding hands. Think we might keep doing family meetings in the morning.
On the way to school Clarity made a comment that I was really happy and she hoped it would last all day long:) My energy always lags around 4pm and today was no different. Once again I ended up on the computer and didn't have time to meditate before I picked them up from school, I thought really hard about it though and almost broke away. That means tomorrow should be the day to break the cycle and listen to the still, quiet voice in my head.
We had a great family night; dinner at Macaroni Grill and Avatar at the IMAX. So much fun. Really incredible. I want to live in a society where everyone honors their connection to Source.
I have had a leftover headache from last night all day, just tightness right behind my eyes. Oh, and I was really irritable all evening. Hard to trace that one. The headache, PMS, too many carbs, not meditating at the prime time, people just not listening to me? Could be anything really. We shall have to see if I find a pattern over the next few months of tracking.
I am beginning to accept that there are always going to be good days and bad days and that I only have so much control over that. For the control freak in me that is a very hard concept to embrace. A large part of me still believes that if I take control of all the variables then I can be happy, bubbly and joyous 24/7 no matter what, come what may! No really, I'm serious. How can it be that today was such a great day, words from my own mouth, yet I had a scowl on my face most of the evening. Can you scowl and be truly having a great time? I guess so, right?
Hopefully I managed to keep my mouth shut and not spew too much of my irritability on my family. They are so wonderful and giving. I feel so blessed to have them loving and accepting me just as I am and not have as high of expectations of me as I do of myself. Just realized that I spaced talking to them about the silence on Sundays plan, coincidence? I think not. Looks like some part of me is trying really hard to avoid that commitment. It must be something that will cause a big shift. Blah blah blah. My bed is calling. I get to sleep in tomorrow, don't have to get up until 6:45 for Thursday Kriya. Yeah!
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