Morning

Hot yoga done! I love hot yoga for lots of reasons but the main one is that it takes me deeper into my workout experience than I get in any other activity. There isn't a single class that I don't realize something new about myself, my behavior or how my brain works. This class I realized that if something isn't easy I tend to be very lackadaisical with it. Not possible in bikram yoga, no matter how hard it is I just keep pushing myself. Pushing myself brings up lots of new energy and ideas. Last class I realized that in the past as push myself I let my inner demons taunt me all class long without reining them in. So, what it is about my ego that gets so angry when I do something that takes a bit of extra effort? It starts screaming the silliest expletives. Somehow working through difficulties and making it to the other side must be threatening. I am just not sure why? Maybe it doesn't even matter. This class I focused on saying a mantra, "thank you, I love you". This was very powerful saying to myself as I looked in the mirror. No shock that I feel completely different coming out of class when I focus on positive thoughts than when I let myself curse and scream under my breath.


I just love getting up early in the morning and having my workout finished and the whole day laid out before me. This coming from a devout night owl is a shock to say but I realize that by sleeping in I am hiding from the world. Don't get me wrong, I think there is a time, place and plenty of good reasons to hide from the world once in awhile. However, getting up at 5:30 excited to start the day and squeezing every last experience out of my day feels GREAT! It is amazing to think that just last week I spent much of the day wishing it would go by as fast as possible so that I could start over again and hope for a happy feeling to come my way. How exhilarating to realize that change can happen in the blink of an eye with just a few positive thoughts. Working my way from hopelessness to hope to joy is hard but oh, the rewards are so sweet. Here's to keeping this attitude with me all day long! Thinking about going skiing since Bogus got snow last night and being back here for my noon client. How's that for squeezing every last drop from my day!