Grief is exhausting

Taught a workshop on grief tonight. It was the first time I have taught on that topic and surprised me how tired I was afterward. It is a delicate topic but so important. I try to walk that fine line between sharing enough to make participants comfortable to share but not sharing so much my feelings overwhelm me and I can't teach. I want to be viewed as a "real" person who is sharing information I have found helpful to my own journey. I don't want to be viewed as some super human guru who has it all figured out. I hope that every person in my class tonight was able to take something of value home. That is always my goal. I know that people don't sit in a two hour workshop and get magically fixed but if I can say one thing that makes a difference then I figure I have done my job and they have gotten their monies worth. It always amazed me how many grief experiences I have in my life when I start talking about them. Some stick out more than others and some I don't think about very often but they have all shaped my, my thinking and my ability to cope with loss. It amazes me that so much growth and goodness can come from the hardest, rawest, intense natural experience that a human is guaranteed to suffer from.